So, what am I doing with this precious time I've been given this evening? I thought I would give you all an update and ask for your prayers on a few things.
I'm 32 weeks pregnant now, almost 33 weeks. Some women breeze through all of this, and then some of us, myself included, are quite uncomfortable most of the time. I can't eat a full meal (or I might throw up), I can't eat sushi or have a glass of wine (for obvious reasons), I can't sleep flat (indigestion), I can't sleep on my back (blood flow to the baby), I can't bend over to pick up things (I am likely the most awkward moving person I know at the moment, and you don't realize how often you bend over until you can't), I have a hard time putting on my own socks or clipping my toenails (can't reach them because of this massive belly), I get out of breath walking from one room to another (lung capacity diminishing by the second), holding Munchkin is interesting (my lap is disappearing as well and he's not super gentle, what toddler is), I have to wear dresses now (even maternity jeans at this point are super uncomfortable), I now have lovely kankles... There are actually much more unpleasant side effects that I won't go into because it could get arguably inappropriate, potentially hilarious, but inappropriate.
All that said, I'm glad to have this experience. I wouldn't trade it for anything. We've had a rough and emotional process with Munchkin, which has been more than worth it. Now we're having a rough and emotional, though different, process with Jackson, and again, I know it will be more than worth it. I can't wait to meet him face to face. I wonder often what he'll look like and who's traits he will have, mine or Jeremy's or a mixture of both. Its like a real life science experiment!
On the Munchkin front. Things are still moving in the adoption direction. I just had a good visit with his CPS case worker and everything seems to be going really well. Praise God!!! He's going to let us keep our little man!!! He's walking confidently now and trying to run and keep up with the big kids. He says words like "uh oh, wow, ball, whoa, more, bye bye, mama, dada..." That's all I can remember at the moment. He's learning to feed himself pretty well. He knows where his belly button and his nose are and he wants to show you all the time. Be careful though, if he shows you his belly button, he'll want to see yours too. Its amazing to watch him grow and see his personality develop.
There's a sad side to this story at the moment though. Munchkin's biological mom has run away from her foster home. We don't know exactly where she is or if they're going to be able to find her any time soon. She has been gone now for 2 1/2 weeks. I worry about her, she's just a kid. I hope and pray that she's safe. If she doesn't re-surface before we finalize the adoption, an open adoption is obviously not going to happen, which makes me very sad. We've set up a picture sharing site for her, and if we can get an email address for her, we'll still try to share pictures with her. If you're the praying kind, please pray for her. I would really like for her to get her life in order and actually become a positive part of Munchkin's life. That is still my hope and will continue to be.
She carried him inside of her for 9 months, the same way I'm carrying Jackson. She loves this little guy, even if she doesn't know how to show it in the proper way. Having this pregnancy experience gives me even more compassion for her.
Ok, I only have about 20-30 minutes left of solitude... time to enjoy one of my addictions that I'm allowing myself because I'm pregnant... rootbeer float!!
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