I had a really hard time finding a title for this post. I've been mulling over it for a few days now. Jeremiah 29:11 pretty much sums up my life and its what I cling to when there are too many variables for me to plan in my OCD sort of way. It seems appropriate today as well.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
New International Version (NIV)
Back in November we were told that we were "selected" as an adoptive placement for a sibling group of two, a 3 year old boy and a 6 year old girl. Then a few days later we were told there had been a mistake and we were not actually selected, we had just made the short list (final four families). Next there was a week of waiting to find out the final decision. The morning we found out we were not selected was the morning of the day before Thanksgiving. That afternoon we got the call for Munchkin needing a foster placement and we picked him up that night. Complete devastation and hopelessness to adrenaline rush and joy all in less than 24 hours.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
New International Version (NIV)
Back in November we were told that we were "selected" as an adoptive placement for a sibling group of two, a 3 year old boy and a 6 year old girl. Then a few days later we were told there had been a mistake and we were not actually selected, we had just made the short list (final four families). Next there was a week of waiting to find out the final decision. The morning we found out we were not selected was the morning of the day before Thanksgiving. That afternoon we got the call for Munchkin needing a foster placement and we picked him up that night. Complete devastation and hopelessness to adrenaline rush and joy all in less than 24 hours.
Fast forward 6 months... Last Friday afternoon I got a call from our agency letting us know that the adoptive placement that had been selected for this sibling group had fallen through and wasn't going to work out after all and that they were taking home studies for these two again. They wanted to know if we wanted to throw our names in the hat again. I won't get into all of the reasons why it didn't work out with the other family, but rest assured, it was nothing scary enough to deter us. So of course we said yes! Even though we've never met these children and had not even seen a picture of them until last week, for a blip in time back in November, they were ours.
My heart is currently aching for them with sorrow over the hurtful situation they find themselves in, and with desire to bring them home if ours is the home God has planned for them. The rejection of a family that is supposed to be your "forever family" as CPS calls it, has to be incredibly painful.
We also have our home study submitted on a few other single children at the moment. Lots of things up in the air. I've started an IKEA shopping list for each of them, because I'm a nut like that, and want to be prepared in some fashion for the many possible combinations and outcomes. That and Pentrist curb my need to plan a bit. If anyone is interested, we're trying to sell our pool table to make a little more room for kiddos.
And I'm still keeping to my goal of living in the moment and enjoying the in between! Munchkin loved getting in the pool for his first swimming lesson!! So much cuteness! We have a fearless little dare devil on our hands! It kills me that I can't post a pic or video clip.
That's all I've got for now folks. We'll keep you posted.
We also have our home study submitted on a few other single children at the moment. Lots of things up in the air. I've started an IKEA shopping list for each of them, because I'm a nut like that, and want to be prepared in some fashion for the many possible combinations and outcomes. That and Pentrist curb my need to plan a bit. If anyone is interested, we're trying to sell our pool table to make a little more room for kiddos.
And I'm still keeping to my goal of living in the moment and enjoying the in between! Munchkin loved getting in the pool for his first swimming lesson!! So much cuteness! We have a fearless little dare devil on our hands! It kills me that I can't post a pic or video clip.
That's all I've got for now folks. We'll keep you posted.
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