So sometimes I feel like a complete spaz. You might read this, or actually know me, and think I'm crazy, and you would be correct.
I worry and stress about the silliest things. And I don't just do it for a few hours or a few days. I have the talent of dragging it out for weeks. If I feel like I did or said something insensitive, selfish or just silly, even after apologizing up and down, I'll be concerned about how that person really feels about me for a long time afterward. Poor Jeremy. Sometimes I'll be apologizing to him while I'm still mad at him for whatever I may have confronted him about. How confusing would that be?!
I can't control how people feel about me. I can't undo my mistakes, and I make plenty. All I can do it try my best to make it right, to learn from it for the future, and to move on. The moving on is the part I have the hardest time with. There was a saying that I coined for myself back in high school (this worry thing is a long standing sin I've been battling), "God is bigger than my conversational blunders." And He is! Praise Jesus!
Philippians 4:6-7
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